I have fantasized about CP and receiving CP since I was 6 years old and even at that young age my fantasies had a tinge of the psychological and were often a punishment for wrongdoing. I believe these stem from much reading of Enid Blyton book, such as the Mallory Towers series and Roald Dahl's "Boy". As I got older my fantasies began to run deeper and become more consuming, until I had my first proper experience with spanking at 19. I was out in Brighton with a boyfriend of mine and was in a mischievous mood, winding him up at every opportunity. He warned me several times I would regret it, but I ignored him and paid the price. He hauled me up into a fireman's lift and spanked my bottom infront of everyone in the pub. I was indignant and mortified at the time, but afterwards was hugely turned on by the whole thing. So was he, and due to our fears of being different our relationship failed. I continued to finish my A-levels without a further spanking, and went to University in 2001 near to bursting with a desperation to feel it again and was fantasizing endlessly over various spanking scenarios...
By the spring of 2002 I was no longer satisfied with fantasy and began to look for the reality. Funnily enough I never thought for one moment I was the only person in the world who had these thought and so I searched the internet high and low until one day I found what I thought I was looking for; other people with a spanking fetish! I was taken to the LFF (London Fetish Fair) by a new found friend in 2002 and was like a child in a sweet shop! I saw and experienced so much that day I was completely overwhelmed. At subsequent fairs and events I met the good people of Miss Marchmont and Strictly English, where Miss Marchmont asked if I would do film and Strictly English were interested in me taking part in parties. I was happy with the idea of parties at the time but not quite ready for film, however continued to socialize with the people of miss Marchmont and later became submissive to Master Kain. He approached me once more on the topic of filming, telling me the details of one film (The Way of a man and His Maid) which blew my mind away to such an extent I followed the white rabbit down the hole without a second thought. the rest, as they say is history...
I have experienced much since that first scene, including Gorean slavery, judicial punishments, interrogations and the emergence of my dominant side. Of course I have now done plenty of film and had many other experiences....but I never stop learning, either in my world of spanking or the world of submission. When I stop learning or believe I have nothing more I wish to learn, I would think it would be time to move on. For now I am happy to enjoy the great community known as "The Scene".
